Time to turn sorrow into joy

Okay, enough wallowing in my own problems, hurts, slights...you name it. I was the one who asked Our Lord to detach me and He obliged. He showed me my priorities were out of place. I see that now. This last year has been a great learning experience coupled with a lot of raw emotions. I have a bright future ahead. Our family is starting over if you will with brand new life experiences; we have a place to live, thanks to our dear friends the Meiers' family, the children are all accepted into school, we have a beautiful new Parish to attend so why not look ahead and start feeling some joy for Pete's sake? Enough of this pain stuff. Thomas Merton hit the nail on the head when he said,

"The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt."

I truly believe that no one will ever really know what it is like to walk in each other's shoes because no one truly knows our hearts. Many of us RE-act, sometimes foolishly, sometimes out of hurt, especially if hurt is your bed fellow. Without going into details my childhood was filled with hurt, sorrow, upheaval and unpredictability. Children NEED predictable and need to feel protected. I didn't have that. I have had many traumas even since then (read my past blog posts!) but there comes of time to start anew and not be defined by your past. My past has made me strong and that is one of my positive qualities. I am loyal, sometimes to a fault because of my past. It's now time to look forward and be happy.

Lent is almost over and we look to the joy of Easter where everything blooms anew after being stagnant for months and months. I hope to embrace that thought. I have been saying a perpetual novena to St. Joseph. His card is in my Bible. He sits in between the Psalms. Inevitably after my prayers with St. Joseph I read the Psalms and most of the ones I have been reading speak of joy and being thankful and praising God.

He has shown me my priorities were WAY out of whack. I closed my facebook as well. I kept my blog because I definitely need some sort of outlet. I still feel the pull to facebook, but as each day goes by I realize that I was way too caught up in the lives of other people and when you expend your time on other people you take away that time that could be devoted to Our Lord. I see that now. I pray I have the strength to stay in the quiet of my heart. When chaos is all you have known it's hard to adjust to peace.

Anyway, those are my thoughts for today....

Finding Closure

This is an issue that seems to be widespread amongst many people I know and I have been wanting to address this issue for a long time, but in all honesty, I didn't know what to write because I struggle so with closure. I don't struggle AS much with the issue when I know the reason behind an ending. I can attest to this with a very close realtive with whom I no longer have a relationship. The decision to set up boundaries and "end" the relationship was my decision and I clearly let this person know why it was ending. This is the fair and right thing to do. Leaving a person hanging is cowardly. That's all the insight I have into this issue and for those of you with whom this article below might help, I am glad.

5 Ways to Find Closure From the PastActions that help you move into your future
Published on April 6, 2011, by Abigail Brenner, Ph.D.

The ending of a significant piece of one's life -- a relationship, a job, a stage of life, or a way of thinking -- may be difficult and even painful for many of us. Something that you once counted on as very important to your life is over and done.

Closure means finality; a letting go of what once was. Finding closure implies a complete acceptance of what has happened and an honoring of the transition away from what's finished to something new. In other words, closure describes the ability to go beyond imposed limitations in order to find different possibilities.

So how do we do it? What are the essential ways to find closure from the past?

1) Take full responsibility for yourself.
It's ultimately up to you to take the necessary actions to help move you forward. Have conversations with yourself, both asking and answering your own questions in a form of a "self-dialogue".

•What or whom are you holding onto? Why?
•Does holding on truly make you happy, or are you hanging on to a situation the way it once was, or the way you wished it had been, instead of how it actually turned out?
•Are you using this "holding on" as an excuse to stay stuck and unresolved? In other words, is dwelling in the past taking you away from moving toward your future?
•Are you trying to avoid dealing with loss and the void that loss creates?
•If you're willing to let go, what does that really mean? What will you have to do?
•Are you afraid of not knowing what the outcome will be?
•Ultimately, what do you believe will happen to you if you let go?
Being as honest as you can be will pay off in the long run. The pain, hurt, anger, and disappointment will diminish once you've cleared the way to a better, more realistic understanding of the situation.

2)Grieve the loss.
Take plenty of time to do this. There is no set amount of time and no prescribed way; it's totally up to each person to find that for themselves. Don't let anyone tell you to "just get over it". However, grieving should not go on for years. That's just being stuck, still heavily invested in the past.

Prolonged or incomplete grief may contribute to making poor choices in the future. The ability to trust, to be honest, and to be your self is essential for a new, healthier relationship or situation to present itself to you. "Unfinished business" must be completed and resolved before you move on.

3) Gather your strengths.

•Focus on the positives. Make a list of your talents, gifts, and assets.
•Surround yourself with people who know you well, encourage and support you.
•Shift the emphasis to what you need, what makes you happy. Don't worry about pleasing others.
•Assess where you can make positive change in your life.
•Define and affirm what you're able to do something about now.

4) Make a plan for the immediate future.
Determine what's most important for you moving forward. If necessary, reorder your priorities to allow you to explore different possibilities and opportunities that may present themselves to you. Try some of these on for size. It doesn't matter if they don't work out, just that you tried. The important thing is to take action in order to make things happen. If you can't find a path, make one!

5) Create a ritual.
Believe it or not, performing a ritual is a powerful tool to help gain closure. Beyond thinking and talking, and thinking and talking some more, ritual is driven by intention and action. A "symbolic enactment" allows you to utilize your creativity and intuition in order to bypass the intellectual, logical part of your brain.

For example, when a relationship is over, what do you do with all of the meaningful items and objects, such as letters, pictures, etc., that were part of the relationship? A "fire ceremony" is a way to consume the past, but any number of rituals that you personally create can provide symbolic finality and closure.

Finding closure allows you to move into your future, unencumbered and optimistic. And hopefully, you'll find that when all is said and done, you will have learned something valuable from all of the significant events and people in your life -- even if they didn't work out the way you thought they would.